Oh, if only it did......
All of
a sudden I have had to make a ton of decisions regarding just about everything
in my life. My head is full and my
stomach aches. Yesterday I had a mini
panic attack in Walmart, of all things, while shopping for the last of our
office supplies. It should have been a
fun outing and instead I was sitting in the waiting area of the pharmacy
calming down and doing relaxation breathing exercises while staring at their
blood pressure machine and thinking I probably don’t want to use that right
now.
The
biggest thing for me right now is the sudden barrage of shopping and spending
money. As a lifelong thrifty person I
have had to shop a lot (I don’t like
to shop) and spend a lot of money that I am not used to spending. It is stressful.
As I
prepare to open my new business my thrifty ways have kicked into
overdrive. I have a set budget and
because I am a chronic overachiever I feel the need to come in under budget, in
fact, way under budget.
To say
I am doing this on a shoestring budget would be an understatement. All I can say is Thank God for the
internet. If I had to drive all over
town to look at stuff and compare prices I would lose my mind completely.
Right
now all the biggies, excluding inventory, are done and I can take a little bit
of a breather for now. It is the hurry
up and wait game. What is truly amazing
is that I am sleeping okay. I’ve had my
sleepless moments where I wake up really early and can’t go back to sleep but
for the most part I am doing pretty well.
For me, that is huge in itself.
My
postings may be a little sketchy over the next couple of months but I won’t
abandon you. Hang in there with me and keep
the positive thoughts and prayers flowing.
Have a great day too!
I know panic attacks. Please try to take it easy when you can.;) walmart is crazy! I pray for your peace in mind n soul. Know that Hes with you,and will lead and guide you. Blessings on your new life,and know that it will all work out. :)
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Bless you Christina. Thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement.
DeleteGood luck! I have been working for myself for over a decade and it can be really scary, but it is also so
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Thanks Mandaline. I am looking really looking forward to it.
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