If it seems like I’ve been a little bit off, not quite my usual hyper productive self lately or just not quite as present as what I have in the past there’s a pretty good reason for it. I wasn’t planning to share these details on my blog, in fact I’ve only told a handful of people closest to me, but I know I haven’t quite been myself and felt an explanation might be in order. You guys tend to pick up on stuff and I don’t want anyone to worry.
On January 30th I had a heart attack. I am not even kidding. At the tender age of 56 and despite the fact that I have been in really good health it happened. Pretty darn crazy, huh? Ironically enough this was right before the Prepare To Die Post post launched in February. I had actually written that article last summer and just before Christmas decided to go ahead and finish it and get it scheduled to upload in the New Year. Little did I know I would be putting my own advice to the test, but I can tell you from my own experience it is really good advice. 😉
So why did I have a heart attack, you might ask? That is a very good question. Not for anything health related, not even age related. No changes to my diet, losing weight or getting more exercise would have or will help me. I do not have a strong family history of heart disease either. What I do have is the great fortune, or misfortune some might say, of having an electrical issue with my ticker. A completely random occurrence.
I’ve had a lot of tests done and right now it is successfully being treated with medication. The damage to my heart is minimal and should be able to repair itself. My cardiologist is watching me closely and I monitor myself at home on a daily basis. So far, so good. I may have some surgery in my future, but right now we are taking a wait and see approach. I tend to take a less is more approach to pretty much everything in my life and I want to see what my body can do for itself as much as possible. My cardiologist feels the same way too so I’m glad about that. So minimal medication and minimal medical interference, but if the surgery becomes necessary than that is what I will do. As a family we already have a plan in place for that.
Right now I am working on getting back to my normal self, staying on top of things to the best of my ability and NOT getting COVID. Once the Johnson & Johnson vaccine is available to me I will likely be getting that taken care of as that one is the best option for me. Until then I’ll just keep doing what I’ve been doing for the past year. Mask up and stay away from people.
Funny story. It would seem that all of the times I've been told I have an anxiety issue and asked if I'd like a pill for that may not have been entirely the case. It might actually have been my heart trying to tell me things aren't quite right. This apparently has been going on for quite some time and was never detected. Not uncommon for women to be misdiagnosed and told they suffer from anxiety when in fact they actually have a cardiac issue. Interesting, don't you think?
Another thing with me is that I never like to tell anyone that something is wrong, especially my kiddos, because I don’t want anyone to worry. I usually keep these things to myself, especially medical stuff, but this was pretty serious. Like the ER doctor told me “you kind of need your heart”. However, there is no need for anyone to worry because I am fine and I am getting better every day. I am finally beginning to see my energy returning. That has honestly been the worst part because I’m not used to having no energy and feeling the need to sleep all the time. So this situation has not been one bit normal for me at all. But I’m beginning to feel my old self returning and that is a very good thing. 😊